for all of this im better off without you.

hi i want to come to colorado.

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ughhhhhhhhhhh!

im so annoyed right now .  im going to be SINGLE for a really long time and do whatever i want. TAKE THAT BITCH. hahahhahah


we just had two earthquakes. YIKES.

and somebody please send me those drunk picures u guys have of me from camping.

so i totally suck at answering my phone.

i know.

ew somebody please unconfuse me...

 i dont even know what i want anymore?

hah go figure..

also, i absolutely HATE being sick. i just got over having the flu last week and what do u know to my surprise i have it ten times worse again. i am so weak and so achy and i hate being sick.

i love where i live. i love the weather. the sun and the beach. omg its starting to feel like summer again. 

goodnight.

"What goes around, goes around, goes around, comes all the way back around"

and dont anyone ever forget that.

im happy sad lonely loved depressed smiling tired wide awake all at once and I LOVE IT.

i have to wake up really early tomorrow just to throw it out there.

i am the best bestfriend ever. just to throw that out there.

big bear today was LOTS of fun. 

if you havent seen the movie ALPHA DOG i suggest you see it. its sooo good but its also way sad.and its based where im from. SCARY. claremont california bitches. haha. ok im done. 


i think i need to move to mammoth lakes california before i go completely crazy in the head like has already started.

Right now he's probably buying her some fruity little drink
cause she can't shoot whiskey.
























and so there it is my encouraging/life changing/smile creating thoughts that have crossed my mind tonight.

use them wisely. 


and dont forget coltons birthday thats in ten days.

i am coming to colorado a week from this coming sunday. i would really like to see all my friends. thats what i need most right now.

nothing i do can make me happy.

tonight i get what ive been wanting so bad for the past 3 weeks.

and all of a sudden is doesnt seem so right anymore. i have lost it.


i dont know if ive made a mistake or done the right thing?





thats it im moving to the beach. haha.

shit happens.


now why cant i realize that myself?

so i do have one friend that knows how to cheer me up.

me and nicole so flew to santa barbara which is three hours away from where we live just to eat lunch. haha our friend is a pilot so we took a little dinker four seater airplane and it only took 45 minutes yay!

then tomorrow i am going to cal city to go dirtbiking til sunday. i am going to be fuccccccccccccccccked up the whole week. and im actually excited about this.


( You Cant Imagine How Much Fun We're Having. )

losing a best friend and a boyfriend both within 48 hours is something i suggest no one EVER TRIES.

its funny how one person can completely change the the way you act and how you feel.

i swear to god from this day i will wait. no matter how much its killing me inside. nothing else sounds better. i sound like i should be in the scene or emo or something. go ahead everyone bitch all you want.

my birthday this year was pretty tight.

i have the BEST boyfriend ever.
he got me two jackets
a kitten
and took me to dinner and a movie.

and the kitty is ADORABLE... shes white with blue eyes and obviously i named her tinkerbell.


now i need to sleep because i drank wayy too much wine last night. haha.

now im excited to go shopping too and get a pedicure and manicure.. haha i feel rich again..


i need to go to disneyland soon.
i need my mom soon.
and i deffinately cant wait til i get a memeborship to LA fitness. haha ok not that any of this matters im just bored.

my birthday is on thursday YAY!!!!!! actually im not that excited. its a boring age. haha.

this is me happy.

i have an awesome boyfriend. i couldnt ask for a better one.

i have a shitty best friend. i want a new one.



i will no longer let her add extra stress to my life, treat me like crap, make me look like a bad person and bother me with her selfish and childish acts..


im done.

ok thats all.

im moving closer to work and school. and i am excited about it.